This Year

Sunday, 1 January 2012

beach 1931

This year, I will
spend more time at the beach,
with sand between my toes.

This year, I will
give up on the goal of less coffee
because more coffee means more pleasure,
and some vices are good.
I will indulge in a second piece of cake when offered,
and ironically stop worrying
that I'm so permanently skinny.
Who cares.

This year, I will
stop saying yes
when I really mean no,
and stop saying no
when I'm too afraid to say yes.
I will stop caring what perfect strangers think,
and hold close the opinions
of those who care for me.

This year, I will
leave aside mandatory daily moments for
savouring the first sip of coffee
rather than chugging it down in a rush,
prolonged belly rubs for a furry friend called Kobi
rather than distracted pats,
five minutes of daydreaming
rather than relentless mental list-making,
a few seconds of smelling my perfume
rather than carelessly putting it on.

This year, I will
so very much,
just for my own pleasure
and no-one else.
I will take time to enjoy words
rather than edit them.
I will marvel at their simplicity
and unknowability,
especially those untranslatable ones:

Cafuné (Brazilian Portuguese): The act of tenderly running your fingers through someone's hair.

I will also run my fingers through someone's hair,
while thinking of these words.

This year, I will
be more protective of my time,
it's in short supply these days.

This year, I will
stop making lists of things
I cannot possibly hope to achieve,
or even want to undertake.
But I will write a new list
if I don't have the
courage, sense, or wisdom,
to follow this one.

* * *

Happy new year!

Image credit: a day at the Beach, 1931.


Danielle P. said...

What a beautiful post with which to start the year! I hope that you will, you will, you will! said...

Just lovely Hila! So very true and thoughtful.

Kelsey said...

This is my favourite new years resolutions post so far.


I hope it's all as happy as it sounds.

Jen said...

What a delicious post. I love all of these words and many of them I am savouring for myself - especially the coffee and cake bits.

More words... more words!

Best wishes - x

rooth said...

Happy 2012! I love the statements about coffee - there's no way I'm giving that up!

Tana said...

A good start with wonderful resolutions is well done! Happy new year to you, dear Hila! best wishes

kori said...

love, love, love this! happy new year to you!

Joy said...

what a wonderful little poem. happy new year!

Debie Grace said...

Beautiful! Happy New Year!

Wishcandy said...

<3 happy new years hila!

i'm always working on caring less of what others think, and saying no instead of yes.

See Hear Say said...

i love this!! happy new year hila, wishing you an amazing 2012!! ps i might have missed something here, who is this furry friend kobi? :)

Thea said...

This is amazing. So inspiring!

HomeCollection. said...

So many resolutions for this new year ! I can't do the same !
But i wish you a lovely new year,
and thank you for your blog, which is a delight to read.

Petra said...

wonderful sentiments and a great list of things to do or not to do.

I hope you are going to have a wonderful year. all the best for 2012!!!


pRiyA said...

Wow, that was so beautifully written it was like savouring my morning cup of coffee.
I look forward to seeing what le projet d'amour offers us readers to contemplate on in 2012.

Sarah Rooftops said...

What a beautiful post! I'm looking forward to hearing how your plans pan out.

Anna Emilia said...

Beautiful words, I wish you happiness to write and run your fingers through someone's hair.

Snow landed here finally, sending you whispering greetings of a tender first day of the year.

jennifer said...

a beautiful post, with the ideal wishes for a new year. I hope yours is as wonderful as you wish for. xx

Sundari said...

Happy new year, Hila. Hope you enjoy it with all those little moments you intend to make time for.

Niina said...

Hila, thank you.
You said it all.

L▲UREN said...

So inspiring lovely xo

MissJW said...

Thank you, Hila, for a beautiful start to the New Year. May you write all the things your soul sings.

Enia Is (Almost) Here said...

happy new year love! here's to it all and more...

Jane Flanagan said...

This is so beautiful. I read it early this morning. Bleary and hopeful after too many cocktails and it struck me with force. And now again, just the same.

Happy New Year, Hila! xx

Siubhan said...

Absolutely perfect Hila, I love these. A lot of them I definitely hope to try and aim for too - the third verse in particular! I wish you a wonderful 2012.

RetreatingAndAdvancing said...

Beautifully written as always. Wish you a wonderful year 2012!

odessa said...

happy twenty-twelve, hila!
and thank you for this. very inspiring. i'm in love with the word cafuné. :)

Camille said...

Happy new year, Hila! You put into words exactly what I want 2012 to be, I wish you to have an excellent year.

Maša said...


Naomi Bulger said...

I wish there was a "cafune"-esque word to express the thanks I want to give you for writing this. More than anything, more than absolutely everything else I have been doing, reading, hearing, saying, absorbing and planning, I needed to read this. You have cut through it all. THANK YOU. What a glorious mantra. I want to wish you happy new year, but I can already tell that 2012 will be precious.

Accidentalwriter said...

So glad I found this Hila. I've never been one for New Year's resolutions - find life can be full of enough pressure without adding to it myself. So many of your statements resonated with how I view the world. I'll make sure I return to this regularly to monitor my desired progress/attitude to life throughout the year. Best wishes

Cath said...

I just stumbled on your blog - love your writing, hope you don't mind me linking (i have a very small following!) I love your comments on 'Somersault' and the place of touch and gesture. thanks for your very beautiful thinking and writing.

milkofthepoppy said...

Happy New Year to you too! Beautiful words and thoughts, as always! Is this your last listing? hahaha
I believe you shouldn't stop making lists and follow them, for me it's such a talent! I wish I could!
Above all this year I wish you happiness in every second of your life...

Nancy Baric *negfilm said...

oh happy happy new year!!! these words are a great start!!! xxn

Lyndall said...

What a beautiful post! I'm hoping to have more simple moments (yes, that first sip of coffee is always so worth slowing down for!) and beachside days too ♥

Natalie said...

Hila, you never cease to inspire me with your words. This has to be one of the most contenting New Year's posts I've read. Makes me think about what I really want out of the new year and not what I am supposed to want.

Thank you for (unintentionally) giving me the piece of mind to relax and just be me.

I wish you the very best, exciting and peaceful New Year!

becca said...

love love your happy resolutions!

especially the one about coffee. I have felt the same many a time, but never wrote it so nicely.

happy 2012!

Galit said...

Such beautiful words Hila! Have the best year to come with dotted with achievements - big and small, personal and professional, but even more important - with love, smiles and happy moments!!

Thank you for so much inspiration and thoughts evoking posts during 2011!
May 2012 be the best year so far! xx

Rita said...

I love your blog - i'm writing from Portugal and lots of cafuné is a wonderful project to do in 2012. happy new year and thank you for sharing such beautiful things :)

Rambling Tart said...

Oh Hila, I needed this more than I can say. :-) I could hug you SO tight. :-) Thank you, thank you. Wishing for these things to be true and rich in your life. :-)

Sasha said...

This is really lovely and I think I could read it again and again when in desperate need of some sensible yet eloquent grounding. It's really a beautiful way to start a new year. Happy new year!

hila said...

oh thank you guys, I could hug you all! To be honest, I'm a bit overwhelmed by the response to my modest words. What a great start to the year. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart.

see hear say/laura: Kobi is my adorable cat, whom I've had for a few years now. I don't talk about him on this blog as much as I should :)

Cath: of course I don't mind. I'm glad you enjoyed my Somersault article, it was a joy to write.

elliottwithlove said...

What a beautiful poem! So fluid, and smooth, and heartfelt. Wish you all the best this year, Hila. :)

hila said...

thank you :)

Ballad of Seasons said...

absolutely lovely Hila! Happy New Year 2012! xxx, Betül

saarah said...

love this <3 !

Maša said...

so beautifully written! happy new year! :)

the wild bunches said...

love this. x

Baroness E said...

hello, i was introduced to your blog this week by my lovely friend Katarina, and i am really enjoying reading it. your new year post is close to my endulgence-loving heart. in slovak, we have a word for running fingers through someone's hair as well.
it's ~ ískať ~ (pron. eeskatj). the word reminds me of my Mum. :)

Olivia Meyer-Jennette said...

Thank you.
This post is absolutely perfect.

Allie said...

I used to stumble upon your blog daily in my combing-throughs of the blogosphere, and I would look at the pretty pictures, and never bookmark, because that was really all I was after - a quick squidge of beauty, no thinkng or pondering necessary. Not to say that there isn't value in beautiful pictures, just that there wasn't any in the way I was appreciating them (that is, not at all).

And then I finally started to read the words you wrote, choosing not to discard the looming blocks of text that paralyzed me with the promise of actually having to put effort into them. And I loved it. You say so many wonderful things, so intelligent and well-though out, the kinds of things that I think but never have the strength to put into words on paper in quite such a well-written manner. And this resolutions-poem is beautiful, delicate, nostalgic; all kinds of expressive adjectives to describe my love for it.

I don't know where I was going with this comment, only just, I guess, to say that I appreciate your blog. A lot.


P R I M O E Z A said...

i'm very late, but a very happy new year to you hila. what a lovely piece of writing.

Amanda Blair said...

what a great list for 2012. I would like to follow some of these as well.

hila said...

this post will go down in my personal history as eliciting some of my favourite comments - thank you all so much!

baroness e: that's a wonderful word, thanks for adding it to my vocabulary :)

allie: thanks so much for your honesty. I do realise my posts can be too much for readers. I guess I don't just write them with readers in mind, but more for myself. Which is probably a bit selfish, but I hope other people get enjoyment out of them too. Thanks for taking the time to read my words, and for responding in such a heartfalt manner. It means a lot to me.

Anonymous said...

this is the most inspiring list! thank you :)

hila said...

anon: my pleasure :)

onesilentwinter said...

oh hila, i will start my mornings reading this poe
thank you.

Ellen said...


kirsch said...

I bookmarked this poem many months ago. I occasionally come back to remind myself about the opportunities that accompany this year. Thank you for your beautiful words of inspiration.

kirsch said...

I bookmarked this page many months ago. On occasion, I will click the link so I can remind myself of the many opportunities that this year holds. Thank you for your beautiful honesty and inspiration.